1/19/2025

the last two entries were written while i was on the bus those days. i've been re watching twin peaks as i said- im making a timeline of events too. i didn't realize until half way through season 1 my first watch that most episodes are 1 day with the exception of a few (like starting monday evening and going into saturday mornig or something). i'm much more interested in how things unfolded and why. i was a csa victim as a kid and i think that's why twin peaks and especially laura palmer's story resonates so deeply with me. i don't have a lot of time to watch now that i'm back in class lol. i have mondays off though so maybe that will be my dedicated twin peaks watch days. i didn't get re watching a show or movie over and over again until i came to twin peaks. it's comforting and i want to spend more time there, with agent cooper, audrey, hawk, andy, big ed, lucy, everyone in town is so comfortable to me- even though they all had a hand in allowing laura to go down the road she did (i guess other than cooper?). twin peaks reminds me of home. it's just a very long drive up north away. it's one of my life goals to go up there. i'd like to move there, but to the 1980's version of north bend. it looks like where my grandma lived, and the people remind me of my family.

i'm on xiaohongshu now, considering the TT ban is in effect (for the time being, trump will swoop in to Save The Day and aquire more of the Youth vote, this was the plan the entire time). i have a very kind friend from Guandong who has been living in SF for the past 2 years and is moving north to oregon soon-ish. the cultural exchange here is fantastic and i hope americans stick around for the most part. it's very fun.

anyways, i hope you're all doing well. especially in the parts of the country effected by fires and the cold front, i think of you often. i think i'm going to keep writing on the bus in my notes app then updating the site when i feel like it. again, i hope you're well and i hope you have fun this week.

dont forget to meditate at 12 noon PST tomorrow (1/20) for mr lynch's birthday!!