1/16/2025

david lynch died today. this was the first time i've cried at a Celebrity Death. i will be re watching the entirety of twin peaks (including FWWM and maybe even reading the books??) and listening to the soundtracks of all his works as tributes to him.

i'm bored and things feel unreal lately. i want to say hello to a stranger, ask what they're reading on the bus, how their day was, hit someone, yell at them, anything. it's like when a bored dog chews uphis tail. i feel like audrey horne. public transportation feels like just waking up, or right before you fall asleep.

when i think of twin peaks i am reminded of a memory from october 2020. i had a """crush""" on this boy (he was giving me attention) and i was just starting to watch season one. i felt connected to laura palmer in a way i couldn't quite place (this was before the Big Reveal). we went to bald peak and i forced him to play the whole opening theme as he drove me all the way down the mountain and back to my house. we stopped talking a little after that- around halloween. that's another story haha. i dont think he found that part of me fuckable.

i think i write some of my most Real Me Diary Entries on the bus. it feels unreal here and i think that helps!