1/8/2025

today i put a lot of lotion on my hands, and i put on nail oil. didn't realize how dry i was. i am a raisin!

i realize this is a different voice than i put out there normally. I guess this is like. a mask slipping? berry isn't me, she's a character i play online, which i think is true fo reveryone, neocities nerd or no. i hope you enjoy this insight and my little change of voice, haha. this isn't indicative of something wrong, playing an explicit Character is just boring and honestly more work than i care to do anymore. i also don't have a personal voice. sometimes i Type Like Berry and sometimes i type like a completely different person. i have a lot of characters i play. i'm a different person from class to class, person to person, building to building. the pigeons at my bus stop know a completely different version of me than the crows at my house do. but it's all me. no one person can know another person in their fullness. you can't even know yourself 100%. which is okay. our peanut brains can't handle it all!

i am very normal about people liking me. i do not feel like i have to force others to enjoy being around me. i don't care if others dislike me. i don't worry about meaningless interactions. i do not turn over stones in my mind that should not be turned over. (affermations)